Nasty Gal = Inspirational!! ♥♥

Sophia Amoruso is the best.
If anybody out there ask me what my dream job is...
This is my straight answer --> "working in Nasty Gal!"

And, "No Asshole" policy..I meaaan..it's the best!

See this video, and you'll know how fun it is to work there.

Peace,
.Dheyzhere.

Welcome(ing) (Me) Back!

Well..

I'm back. 

Cannot believe that March was the last time I wrote in here.

Such a long time ago.

Honestly, a lot of things have happened in the last 4 months.

For starters, I got a new job.

That's why this blog looks like an abandon house.

I got so caught up with the new life I have, that I forgot the happy feelings when I write.

Sad.

I wanna tell you guys, whoever read my blog, about my new job.

All of it.

Because, for me, working is  a stage of life that can be maturing us as a person.

But, I want it to be special.

So, I'm just gonna find a better time to write all the story down.

This is the first day of fasting, btw.

I feel thirsty as hell.

Hahaha.

Dunno why, but the more I get older the more cranky I become.

I should feel more grateful for what I have, right?

That's exactly what I wanna learn.

Be more grateful.

Be less judgemental.

Be positive.

Less complaining.

And be more appreciative to myself.

Bye.

.Dheyzhere.

Nice Quote #4 & #5

"Stop thinking you're not good enough. You are beautiful & way stronger than you realize. Stand up for yourself, don't just let people tear you down, because soon enough...You'll start tearing yourself down."

~McKenzie Hassler

 

♥♥♥

"Take a step back. You're human. You are beautiful. You are so beautiful. & you can be anything. You can be everything. Don't hate because someone broke your heart. Or because your parents split. Or because your best friend betrayed you. Or because the kid down the street called you fat, ugly, stupid or worthless. Cry when you want too, let go when its time. Don't hang onto painful memories because your afraid to let go. Let go of things that are in the past. Forget things that aren't worth remembering. Stop taking life for granted. Live for something. Live for yourself. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Question things. Tell someone how you really feel. Sleep under the stars. Create. Imagine. Inspire. Meet new people. Make someones day. Follow your dreams. Live life to the fullest. And one day when your old, look back with no regrets."

~Anonymous
 

STYLE CRUSH: Two-Piece Dress !!

Life without a job is pretty much fun and relaxing.
Hahaha.

L.I.E!!

Even though I don't have any deadlines or articles to write, or even the responsibility to go to work from 9 to 5, I still have a lot of things to do at home.

Especially with my mom constantly going out of town for her job (like today when she has to go to Cirebon T.T) and my dad taking care of my sick grandma in Subang, I have to be the one who is responsible for taking care of the house; my sister and my 8 cats. ;p 

Sweep and mop the floor, buying some daily needs (vegetables, spices, and stuff), sometimes cooking simple food for me and my sister, washing dishes, drying clothes (yupp, I did that!), etc. Bottom line is, I am pretty much like a house maid. Hahaha.

And you know what, never underestimate the job of your house maid, my friend. Their job is physically demanding and so f*cking tiring, for God sake! Stressful too. And it's like a never ending journey that you have to go trough over and over again. Because you will always have dirty plates to wash and dirty floor to clean every day. (-______-")

So, while you have maid, respect them!

Anyway, enough of my sob story. Hahaha.
Despite having many things to do at home, I still have plenty of time to do things I like; watching new series, blogging, sketching, and reading some fashion websites. Yaaaay!!

Not everyday, though. Coz sometimes I am just too exhausted after doing those home tasks that I don't care of what happen around me. All I need is a f*cking nap!! ;p

But still, I had time watching Golden Globes last Monday, and I love it!

I love Tina Fey and Amy Poehler jokes and costumes.
I love Kristen Wiig and Will Ferrel dialogue while reading Best Actress nominee.
I love Bradley Cooper. (Who doesn't?? ;p)

And I got stuck with this trend.
Two-piece dress!

It can be a bralet + high waist skirt, a cropped top + skirt, or peplum top + long skirt.

Can't say I'm dying for this trend, though, but hey, it looks stunning on celebrities. So why not trying? :)

Cropped Top + Long Skirt = Vintage & Classy Looks!

New 'it' girl, Kerry Washington, at 'Django Unchained' Rome Premiere.
She wears J. Mendel dress.
✏

Anne Hathaway shows off her stunning skinny body with this
white bodycon dress by Chanel at Golden Globes 2013.
She won "Best Supporting Actress" for her exhausting,full of sacrifice role
in 'Les Miserables'. Congrats!!
✏

New Momma, Sienna Miller, who already look perfect, by the way, wear Erdem dress at Golden Globes 2013.
While many critics hate this dress, I think I love this look, you know.
It looks vintage-ish and simple.
Well, maybe it's not a 'Best Dress" material, but it's not worst, either.
✏

Peplum Top + Long Skirt = Glamor & Stunning Looks!

Michelle Williams at Oscar 2012.
Wearing LV red dress. Superb!!
✏

Solange Knowles (my new style icon!!).
♥ her brave style sooo much!
This time she is wearing yellow dress by Rachel Roy at Met Ball 2012.
✏

 Bralet/Cropped Top + High-Waist Skirt = Casual Looks!

Zoe Saldana looking pretty and casual wearing Jonathan Saunders dress
at Teen Choice 2012.
✏

Selena Gomez, Miley Cyrus, and AnnaLyne McCord wore bralet + high-waisted skirt.
This set of looks give us the more casual effect on the red carpet.
✏

❤, Dheyzhere

2013 Resolution

I was a girl without a goal.
For a long time.
I hate setting any target, because it sucks when you fail to achieve it.
I hate making promises that I will break in the future.
So, I always let it flow.
See how the way it goes.

But this year, I've been through a lot.
The ups and downs with my health, job, family, and emotional problems.

Just so you know, I'm a flat person.
I don't like conflict.
I don't like change.
So, my life is pretty monotonous for the last 23 years.
No big drama.
Nothing.

But, all of the sudden, those events came to my life without any announcement.
I was being pushed to give up all because of what happened to me.
I was being pushed to pay more attention to myself, my family, and what's going in my surrounding.

I still have a hard time adjusting what's happening in my life.
I still have a hard time accepting my condition right now.
I still have a hard time handling my emotion.
I still have a hard time figuring out what I wanna do and I wanna be.
I still have a hard time absorbing any kind of criticism that people give me.
I still have a hard time balancing my life.
I still have a hard time living a healthy life.
I still have a hard time making a good connection with my parents.

I am not perfect.
I make mistakes.
I live in fear of disappointing my family everyday of my life.
I live in fear of failure when so many people expect me to be better than who I am right now.
I live in fear that I'm gonna die useless.

I live in fear...for that long.

But I am a human being.
Just like any other human, I learn everyday.
I learn from my mistakes.
I learn from what already happen to my life.

The bad, the good, everything.
Those are the things that shapes my life, that makes me who I really am today.
It's not perfect.
It's not all glitz and glam.
But, I am eager to make amends.
To change my whole perspective.
Even adding some new principles.
And let go of my ego.

Next year, my wish is simple.

"I wanna be healthier, happier, and better as a person."

May God give me the way.

Amen.


Love,
✚ Dheyzhere ✚

The F*cking Motherboard and The Awesome Eye Necklace...!!

Fiuuuuuuuh...
Finally, I can turn my laptop on.
Well, it took me 30 minutes to make it alive.
I could probably even do a Gangnam Style dance for 100 times while waited for my laptop to be alive.
Argggghh.
It's the motherboard, man.
You don't mess with the motherboard.
It's like the king of your every gadget.
It even has a "mother" in its name.
See, every words that start with 'mother' have an absolute power and control to their universe.
Just say it...Mother-Earth, Mother-Nature, My-Mother.
Yess, the last one.
Wheeeew.
Don't even dare to make her mad.
So, it's basically working like your brain.
When it ruin, your every things don't even work.
So, I guess I can say my laptop is in a critical condition right now.
If he is a human (yes, I prefer my laptop as a guy), he will probably be on the bed unconsciously with infusion, needles all over his body, and the "beep-beep" thing around him.
Yaiiks..scary!!!
Whatever.
Hope my mom will buy me a new laptop soon.
Huhuuu.

Well, on the good side, I just bought this awesome necklace.
I think this is the most random thing I've ever bought.
But I like it soooooo much.
It's really really cool.
It has this huge eyeball in the middle of it.
Aaaaah, I wanna say it again.
I f*cking love it.

Eye Neclace by JIRAVE Ducan

    

See ya,
 

Akhir Dari Segala?

Mungkin saya harus terlahir seperti ini.

Mungkin ini sudah jalan hidup.

Dibenci.

Dianggap arogan.

Dikhianati.

Dikecewakan.

Dianggap aneh.

Dianggap gagal.

Dianggap tak bertanggug jawab.

Dianggap bukan apa-apa.

Disia-siakan.

Ditertawakan.

Diinjak-injak harga dirinya.

Dianggap tak berperasaan.

Dianggap egois.

Dianggap bukan manusia.

Sudah saya curahkan hidup saya untuk melakukan sesuatu dengan benar.

Sampai saya takut untuk melakukan kesalahan.

Saya menghindar dari hal-hal itu.

Yang akan membuat saya salah.

Yang akan membuat orang lain berpikir saya salah.

Saya lakukan semuanya di jalan yang benar.

Benar menurut orang-orang.

Benar menurut norma-norma.
Benar menurut hati nurani.

Tapi, saya tetap salah.

Orang memandang saya tetap salah.

Katanya saya egois.

Selalu menomorsatukan masalah saya.

Saya tidak peka.

Melihat orang lain susah, saya toh tak merana.

Begitu katanya.

Jadi, saya harus apa?

Menangis membabi buta ketika melihat orang terjatuh?

Membunuh orang yang menyakiti teman dan keluarga saya?

Bunuh diri ketika saya dianggap gagal dan hanya menyusahkan orang lain?

Saya jadi beban.

Beban buat keluarga.

Beban buat teman-teman.

Beban buat Tuhan.

Beban buat diri sendiri.

Rasanya gelap saja.

Gelap yang terasa.

Ketika tak ada lagi cahaya yang datang menerpa.

Ketika saya gelap sendiri, tanpa ada teman lagi di sini.

Saya si gagal.

Saya si pembawa susah.

Tak ada yang bisa saya perbuat.

Untuk buat mereka bangga.

Mereka yang pernah mengenal saya di dunia.

Tapi, apa ini akhir dari segala?

Day 10: Still No Change

No progress.
For that part. T.T
Still feel lonely.
Feel so overwhelm.

New daaaay, come here soooon.
 

Penting Ngga Penting, Yang Penting Nulis.

"Begadang jangan begadaaang.."
Begitu Bang Rhoma berpesan.
Hahaha.

Tapi, apa mau dikata Bang Rhoma.
Saya tetep ngga bisa tidur malem ini.
Entah kenapa.
Adrenalin saya masih aja semangat bekerja setelah seharian ini.

Agak aneh sih kalo dipikir-pikir.
Biasanya kan saya (yang notabene pengangguran ini) leyeh-leyeh doang di rumah.
Ngga ngapa-ngapain dan ngga ke mana-mana.
Tapi kok justru malah cepet ngantuk yah?
(Ooh tidak. Kata sakral yang pantang disebutkan. NGANTUK. Selalu bikin saya nguap. T.T)
Jam setengah sembilan aja mata udh perih-perih asoy gitu.
Kata orang Sunda mah udah reeup..bray..reeup..bray.
Hehehe.

Tapi ini, abis seharian pergi dari rumah.
(Bukan kabur loh. tapi ada urusan yang lebih bermutu. Hehehe.)
Saya yang pegel leher, kaki, dan mata ini justru malah masih melek dan ngejogrog aja gitu di depan laptop.
TIDAK BISA SLEEPING alias bobo alias tidur.

Aigooo.
Malem-malem sendirian bingung juga mau ngapain.
Kucing-kucing lagi pada hang out bareng temen-temennya di malam hari.
Mami+papi (hoeeks..entah kenapa jijay denger orang manggil ini..hahaha), bokap+nyokap sama si ade udah sibuk di dunia mimpi.
Jadi akhirnya kuputuskan nulis aja deh.
Ngga penting tapi penting buat latih otak supaya tetep cerdas.
Hahaha.
Hey, at least I'm doing something rather than biting my nails.
Or, even better, picking up my nose.
(Kesannya jadi kaya ngambil idung gw yang jatoh. amit-amit. Pait..pait..pait..)



Sebenernya ini tulisan ngga jelas juntrungannya ke mana sih.
Tapi, saya nulis ini ada alesannya juga.


Tadi abis flashback ke postingan-postingan blog masa lalu.
Ternyata seru juga baca tulisan sendiri.
I can see myself grow trough those posts.
I can also feel emotion, loneliness, happiness, craziness, friendship, anger, and love from those pages of posts.


And, one thing I also founds out:
I'm not a bad writer, either.


Hahaha.
Mulai sombong.
Kadang yah, kalo abis nulis blog itu suka minder dan ngerasa, "Haduuh, tulisan eike jelek amat, Bos! Grammar Inggrisnya ancur (bener bangeet ini), inti ceritanya ngga ada."
Tapi ternyata disitu seninya.
Nulis emang ngga harus dan ngga bisa selalu sempurna.
Tapi dari kesalahan-kesalahan itu saya bisa menangkap kejujuran dan kesan real dari tulisan saya.
Dari tulisan-tulisan itu saya belajar.
Dari tulisan-tulisan itu juga saya tumbuh.
Baik secara emosi, pikiran, dan tata bahasa tentunya.


Sama halnya dengan tulisan, saya berharap pandangan saya pun akan terus berkembang.
Terutama tentang kehidupan.
Saat ini sih saya kebanyakan selalu memandang negatif sama yang namanya kehidupan.
Penyebabnya cuma satu.
Saya belum berhasil menemukan yang namanya real happiness.
Emang si happy ini rada susah ditemuin kayanya.
Padahal banyak yang nyari loh, Bu Happy!
(Kesannya jadi kaya lagi manggil leadernya ibu-ibu arisan..hahaha)


Tapi mungkin akhirnya saya bisa sadar.
Kalo hidup itu ngga selamanya harus mencari kebahagiaan.
Karena kesempatan kita merasakan dan melewati berbagai emosi-- sedih, marah, cemburu, iri, dengki, bangga, kagum, semangat --adalah sebuah pengalaman berharga yang lebih dari sekedar bahagia.
Kesempatan belajar merasakan berbagai perasaan ini bikin diri kita jadi lebih kaya.
Kaya segala-galanya. 
Kaya rasa.
Kaya ilmu.
Kaya emosi.
Kaya akal sehat.


Well, sometimes I don't even know where these wise words come from.
Maybe from another tiny part of me.
Or maybe someone else is controlling my brain.
Whatev.


Sejalan dengan tulisan tak berujung ini, saya bukannya merasa ngantuk. (seperti yang saya harapkan.)
Saya malah merasa lapar.
Jadi, saya mau makan tengah malam sambil menikmati kesendirian dulu saudara.



Peace out,